almost 2 years later

Wow, has it really been almost two years? According to the calendar yes. According to my life it has been much longer. So much has happened and changed for us. Papabear and I have been through and are still going through some really rough things right now. Its not our marriage, that is definitely stronger than ever. It has grown and turned into something I never dreamed it could. Its just the outside forces that try to tear us apart, but that will not happen. Why is it that it takes a problem the size of a atomic bomb to really wake us up? To make us see what is really important in life. To make us ask our self "Am I really there for my family or am I just checking in from time to time?" Well I can tell you I was definitely just checking in. Yes it took a "bomb" going off to get my attention, to realize that you get one spin on the merry go round and you better get it somewhat right. Its almost as if I'm glad the God got my attention. Correct that I AM glad God my attention. I have a huge responsibility to my family, and checking out and thinking my boys would raise themselves is not going to cut it. Period. Now that God has my attention I see all that he has given me if life. Even the stuff I thought was bad at the time, I can now look back and see the good in them. Some people Papabear and I need to thanks are our parents. Thank you for raising us in the church because if it we had not been I just don't know where we would be now. Being able to turn to our faith when life seems to be irreparably broken is all that has gotten us this far. Being able to see him use the bad to bring good and help others in pain is and awesome privilege indeed. Some other folks I need to thank is our church. Thanks for accepting us into your family. Your unconditional love is unbelievable and a testimony to God. You lift us up and keep us going and you don't even realize it most times. We are not out of this valley yet. Not by a long shot. We know that we will get through it one day. We will look back and see why everything happened and understand it. One day at a time right now that how we are taking it. That's all we can do right now, just take it one day at a time with God carrying us.